Having a life and living your life
Monday, February 5, 2007
I am sure most of us have had this very familiar phrase thrown in our faces, That is "Get a life!"
I have a friend who I asked for a definition of having a life, Who I shall not name. He said "Having a life means having a social life, going out, bother about looks and image" or something like that.
Previously I had thought, What he said about me is true, I played soccer 5 times a week, I play games more than I sleep and what not. I really felt I had no life and felt like a bum. Then he told me to come enjoy the high life with him, At first it felt great.. Coming out 4 times a week to walk around and sitting down talk.
IT FELT GREAT.
Then I thought about my past "life", And was utterly disgusted at how I spent them. But now, I'm getting sick of it. It's like everytime I go out, It's the same place to window shop and same place to eat.
Think about it, Isn't it very boring and very routine? Is that having a life? Yes, On the surface it looks good but ultimatly, Am I feeling great doing this? Companionship of friends yes, But its not very enjoyable. Like how Gaybra told me, Guess he was right afterall.
Is this kind of life what I truly want? Do I want to follow a straight path all the way to a office job? Then always praying for the weekends to come faster? Then will I die happy and with a smiley face? Happy that I lived a life working 8 hours per day with the occasional Overtime?
NO!
I remember I told shawn that they(soccer friends) should get a life and not play soccer every alternate days. I felt very good being on the top "laughing" at them.
Until just now, I had a conversation with a friend, It seems that the life I am having is not a life I want but is a life that he wants and I've been doing what he wants instead of what I want, As if he is the lead actor in my life story. How is that right?
A weeks back I read about the life of a globe trotter, He travels all over the world with his girlfriend seeing exotic stuffs. Though he's always short of money, He is truly a living a great life yeah? At least he won't die in a well, He would die trying to see the grass on the surface or even better, He has already seen it along with the magnificent sunset and sunrise.
So I wanna say to everyone I've said mean stuffs to, I am truly sorry and I certainly hope to get your forgiveness. As a sign of your acceptance, I hope to receive a message or SMS to my hp, 98475321
I think about the life and time with Han, Although I enjoy talking with him and Albert, But what we doing is too routine and mundane.
Then I compare with Gaybra, He wanted to go Dhoby Ghaut get his figurines, I followed him but we lost directions and had to walk back and forth alot of times and I did showed dissatisfaction in my tone, Sorry Gabbs, About that.
But the time we spent was really great, We got to see alot of stuffs I don't see very often or even seen before. Isn't it ironic? Singapore is so small yet I only have seen this very small part of it?
Then we walked from Dhoby Ghaut to Bugis, Not much of a achievement, But we certainly felt great when we arrived! Isn't that more of a adventure?
Then now I think, What is the life I want? I could be a average singaporean and follow this route..
Primary School ==> Secondary School ==> Poly/JC/Whatnots ==> University/Work ==> Die
or I could do what I really want and I've thought about it, I'm gonna try my best to persuade my parents to let me do it regardless whether I have to lie my way through or what
I wanna be a globe trotter.
I want my life to be exciting, I want to see new things everyday, It may be tough but it would be enjoyable rather than slogging away at a day job. There is so much to see in this world, Why should I be trapped in this island slogging for a company who would probably not acknowledge my contributions.
I am already 18 this year, All I cared about previously was whether I have money to go out later, Whether I have enough money for PS3 when it comes and what to wear out later.
On the surface, Yes I do have a life but a extremely shallow one. Because I do not enjoy what I do, Too long have I been told how to live my life, Now I'm taking it over!
Although I am still young and have a education to pursue, I can't go around the world and experience it in this state. But there are still so many things to try out in Singapore, So many things I've always wanted to do but never did because my life was dictated by another person...
MI RITE?!
Words I'll never speak..
10:09 PM
